I love it. I love not knowing any more about “The Lord God” than I have to know.  Like the old analogy, you don’t have to understand how a car works to be able to enjoy the sheer driving pleasure of a mini cooper [ok perhaps I tweaked the analogy a bit to my own liking…].

     This week I was reading my current book, Searching for God Knows What, when the author Donald Miller, discussed the struggle that the people of Jesus’ time had with understanding His identity.  Donald brings up the point that Jesus surpasses all limitations of our language, and therefore cannot be explained.  PERIOD! 

        “In an exchange recorded in the book of Exodus, God
        is speaking to Moses through a burning bush.  Moses
        asks God a seemingly adolescent question, knowing full
        well he was speaking with God: ‘Who should I say sent
        me?’  Moses might well have been asking, How do I
        explain You? What is Your identity?  And within God’s
        answer to the question we feel the limitations of language.  
        God simply answers: ‘I AM WHO I AM.’   The Jews would
        know well this encounter between Moses and God, and it
        would have undoubtedly come to mind when Jesus
        answered His inquisitor’s similar question by repeating
        the phrase “I AM.” And yet it is a fitting reply for a
        Creator explaining Himself to His creation.  God did
        not answer, “I EXIST,” or offer one of His names, all
        of which are metaphors invented for humans, but rather,
        “I AM.” Climbing inside letters, God explains,

I encompass, I am beyond existence, I am nothing you will understand, I have no beginning and no end, I am not like you, and yet I AM.




Immediately after reading that I dropped my book and laughed, amazed at how ridiculously awesome God is.

Today, I am reading in Genesis.  I am reminded of the Donald Miller episode the day before in c03v20-24 in which the NLT version [current favorite ?] consistently refers to Adam as “The Man”, and the entity we know as God as “the Lord God.”  simple enough, but read this..


“Then the Lord God said, “Look, the human beings have become LIKE US, knowing both good and evil…”


Im shaking my head right now, because I know that ive reached one of those “awesome God” moments, where I realize that I too have the same limitation in words, and therefore cannot express how this makes me feel.  









Im so amazed at how I don’t have to understand you..   to get you..

the last final. done.

im sitting here in the place that i started calling "home"

im thinking about the people that ive met
and hte people who have stuck
and the people who i care about
and the people who ive learned about
and the people whos lives i know way too much about


im thinking about my experiences
my 18th birthday and my splash into adulthood
my second real job
my first apple computer [and not the last :]
road trips gone wrong
road trips  gone right
the clubs and the groups
the worships and the prayer


now i concentrate on my fears.
im fearing going through all the stuff ive stashed around my room
im fearing packing up everything
im fearing fitting it in a 91 mazda protege.


im tearing up
about not seeing some people for a couple months
about not seeing some people for a semester
for another year
for the rest of my life.


sometimes i avoid them.  i see them walking down hte way, and i dont want to confront it.
i just go the other way
so i wont have to let it show just how much its going to hurt not seeing them again.


all this after 1 year.
ONE YEAR!
and its not even a year
its a collection of months
and memories
and emotions
and love
and joy
and God

God. 

dont let me leave him out..
im thinking about how im still alive
how my most prized posessions [ though their just circuitry and plastic, paper and dirt ]
are still here
serving me
im thinking about newfound skills
newfound joys
newfound tollerance

and that yet-to-be-found life direction











::sigh::

is that sappy enough for you?

oo


i think i hear sleep calling..

:]  she has such a pretty voice..

ive missed you, my dear...








btw,
san antonio?

ill be home soon :]